Thursday, March 31, 2005
sigh I'm sick =(
1:25 PM
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Wednesday, March 30, 2005
waaaa.. Wat a busy weekend... not enough time to do my qt and homework! oh well.. at least I managed to get my qt up again and currently frantically trying to catch up with my bible reading plan ahahha.. ok anyways.. yesterday and today was great! the 1st 2 periods at least haha.. we had REW this week which is sort of late but oh well.. aha so yup.. the message was veri good la! hahaha the best part was tat manyppl accepted Christ and rededicated their lives back to Him.. Praise the Lord!!!! then had to share my testimony during the service.. so scary.. I heard i cld not be heard haha.. cause I was lik mubbling or something but HEY! 1st time la can??
SO! Today.. had school.. today was really slack haha.. nothing much happening.. accept tat I got lots of undone homework!!! ): oh well.. I better go finish after I blog man.. then after school went to Plaza Sing to get a Hillsong CD Look To You.. the songs r really great! (((: so after tat went to church, sat there waiting for Alison.. so read abt 10 chapters of Judges and finally finised it haha.. then fell asleep haha.. after tat Alison came and she started to teach me Chem .. after tat at abt 5.. we went up for bible study! on Revelations 8 and 9.. I'm telling u man u all have to go for tis it's really amazing and sort of sad cause many ppl wld die in the end times.. locus with heads on woman.. hair of a women and a sting of a scorpion and teeh lik Lions? eeee.. haha anywys I better go do my work. BYEEE!
12:22 PM
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Tuesday, March 22, 2005
Hmmm feel like putting my testimony on the blog (: It's kinda long so..
just read it! ahha
I was born in a Christian family and went to a Christian school (ACS Br) and thus I accepted Christ rather early during one of my school's Religious Emphasis Week (REW) when I was primary 3. On that particular day, after the speaker had finished speaking and when he started to pray he asked anyone who wanted to accept Christ to pray this prayer along with him. I felt something in my heart prompting me to pray but I kept telling myself, "I'm already a Christian wad..." (At that time I did not really know what being a Christian was yet) But in the end I decided to just pray...
After the prayer, the speaker asked all those who prayed the prayer with him to raise up my hand and I did but with great fear that someone might see me. So I quickly put it up then down again. After the whole thing, it was announced that those who rose up their hands were to stay back for a while so they could take down our names or something like that. Me, being too embarrass to stay back, left. That was basically how I accepted Christ.
After that however, I did not feel like anything changed in my life and went back to living my same old normal life, studying for tests and exams, praying while I lying down on my bed just before I went to sleep, going to church every Sunday (have been praying and going to church since young with my parents but took it as a chore), playing the computer etc.
Life went on as usual and when I was still primary 3 I began to steal from the school's bookshop. It started off with something small like the sharpener then I began to be bolder and to steal more and more. Primary 4 came and the school moved to a new campus for renovation and there I continued to steal. Another significant even that happened that year was that my parents stopped going to church so I too stopped with a big smile on my face (In my heart I was like YAY! I don't have to wake up early on Sunday mornings again and waste my time in church!)
However, even at this low point in my life, God started to work in my life and mould me to what I am today. The first thing he did was to stop me from stealing. He did this by causing me to loose my watch when I was around primary 4 or 5. Before I actually lost the watch, God had forewarned me that if I would not stop stealing, I would loose something I had equal to the amount I stole (At that point I was just telling myself I was thinking too much), so when I lost my watch I was like ok... maybe it really IS God telling me that.. I think I should stop stealing before I loose something else. So after that incident I began to steal less and less and before I knew it I stopped stealing! (This did not just happen in a few weeks or months but took almost a whole year before I finally stopped.)
Another event that God used to change me was when I was sec 1. During sec 1, my godfather passed away while he was on a business trip to the United States. That really impacted my life, as he was really close to me, closer to me then even my father. Just like that someone whom I love was just taken away and the worst thing is that while he was still around I did not appreciate the things he did, always taking things for granted, even though he treated me like his son...
From that day on, I began to draw closer to Christ and began to read my bible daily and while doing so remembered what He did that day at Calvary dying on the cross for the sins of not just the Jews, but the whole world! I'd also taken this gift of eternal life for granted but now since that incident I started to thank God for the many things He has given me. It was at this point where I felt that I should go back to church, but still, my pride and the temptations of the world stopped me from going back...
One thing that caused me to be afraid since young was to be alone especially during the night or after I watch a horror film as I was afraid of ghosts, spirits, demons and the like... (Part of it was also because I lived so close to a cemetery) I dreaded going upstairs alone and would only do so when I bring my dog along with me or when I had someone to accompany me. So than one day, my grandmother after seeing how scared I was even though I was so old (sec 1 already for crying out loud!) brought me to see pastor Peter Lin (The Chinese ministry pastor) and he explained to me how to overcome this fear, that is by praying. I, after listening to what he said felt somewhat consoled and from that day onwards I began to get less and less afraid about such things. Another thing that was significant after that day was that he invited me to church (This church!) I decided to go that Sunday and the week after that I joined the Youth Fellowship on the 20th of Oct 2002!
Although I did not really enjoy youth fellowship the first few times, I soon began to make friends and after about a year I began to serve in the worship ministry in the youth as a back-up singer. The joy of going to church was great, having fellowship with other believers and of course God! The most important thing I learned while at church was my assurance of eternal life! All through my Christian life, I'd always thought that good works was involved in order to gain eternal life and I've always lived a life worrying where I'll go after I die, Heaven or Hell? But after learning the verse in 1 John 5:12, "He who has the Son has life; he who does not have the Son of God does not have life." I'm assured that I have eternal life!!!!! =)
Things improved further when some of my friends and I started, on 5th December, something like a cell group where we worship, fellowship and even listen to a sermon all on the phone! It was a great idea to encourage and pray for each other and also to bring people to Christ, although none of us really knew how. Than one day during one of the Youth Retreats (The first one I attended) I learned how to share Chris with others! I learned how to use this booklet called the four spiritual laws and from that day on, was empowered to do evangelism and bring the good news to not just my friends but even teachers in school! God has really blessed me and has given me lots of opportunities to share Christ with free thinkers, Buddhist, Taoist, Muslims and even Mormons (a cult)! The experience of going out there and sharing was great and God has graciously given me the chance to reap some of the harvest while sometimes to sow seeds... Seeds that will last!
Brothers and sisters, I tell you that once you have gone out and sown seeds and reaped the harvest, you would never want to stop but continue to bring people to God's Kingdom! Even I myself started off at first uncertain of what the outcome would be if I shared Christ with my friends (Imagine what they would say about me!!) but I decided just to try and when I shared Christ for the first few times in a tent during OBS to my friend, my friend accepted! I was amazed at what God did in me that night and since then I've never stopped telling others about God's love.
Soon after the youth retreat, I went for a discipleship course which really got me connected to God and there I learned many things that brought me to a much closer relationship with God! I learnt things like how worship is not just the singing of songs but offering our lives to God, how I should live according to God's will and most importantly staying connected to the vine (which is Christ).
After the discipleship course, I somehow just decided to memorize the Sermon on the Mount after being encouraged by this person who did it during his seminary training, which I read about during the discipleship course. I did so and only finished in 2005! This is my encouragement to all you people out there who complain about memorizing scripture, don't worry if God can let a person like me memorize 3 chapters of the bible, I'm sure He will empower you to do so as well! Don't loose heart!
Then in August of 2004, I was asked to head the Evangelism ministry (The youth one), which after praying about it I took it on. Although we started off small with about 6 people, I thank God for providing me with a wonderful planning committee that is ever so eager for the expansion of His Kingdom. In 2005, God continue to pour His blessings on us and we grew to 11 members with a proper structure and inspiring us to hold certain evangelistic/outreach programs like the Youth Alpha, which in my opinion was quite a success!
I really thank God for everything that he has done in and through my life for being there with me always, inspiring me, comforting me, consoling me, encouraging me, going on ahead to prepare the way for me and leading me. God You are my everything. I love You...
2:27 PM
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Sunday, March 20, 2005
Weeeeeeeeeee! Just got back from the Youth Retreat!!! It was really a GREAT experience! So many ppl were there too! The messages were great, worship was great and not to mention
GOD is
GREAT!anyways! on the 1st day went to Sentosa, had ice breakers with me as the mc haha.. was kinda funny haah then we played bingo! as well as many other games but the rest I cld not mc cause was restrining the electric guitar tat uncle Sek Wah broke (tsk tsk tsk =P) after tat I think we had lunch haha then hada workshop by pastor.. the 1st 1 which was quite good! Learned stuff but I can't remember it now!! I better go revise man hahha after tat we had more games at the beach! filling water bombs and stuff lik tat oh! and managed to throw 1 bomb and uncle Kc! I've funally did it after oh so long! hahaha the games were really funny larh ahha especially with all the water bombs bouncing ard HAHAHAHA after tat showered, then had dinner.. dinner was erms.. GOOD! haha oh yes be4 tat had a reheasal for worship with Mitchell leading haha.. it was good! we sang Awesome in this place! too bad got not enough time to perfect the song haha.. ok after tat had worship than a theme tok by uncle Kc! ofcourse it was good as usual :D hahaa after tat we had a nice little nite walk in the Dragon trail where Imet up with Dom, Portia and Michelle haha Oh! and Eugene Har caught up with us ahahha.. cute little fellow lols. went thru with not much trouble haha.. then after tat got back then had a rehearsal.. YES! a rehearsal haha.. wel.. sort of.. yup.. so ya.. enough abt the 1st day! 2nd DAY! woke up at like 6.30 showered and had a wonderful 2hrs with GOD toking to Him... it was really great.. I felt really charged spiritually after tat, thanks God (",) after tat had breakfast and we were off to a another theme tok haha.. after tat lunch, than another workshop! haha hard day! after the tok we went off for the Pilgrams Jounery sorta lik a amazing race thing had fun not to mention.... we WON! muahahaha! hahahahha... We were just abt to give up though haha.. oh well.. Who'd tot we'd beat the other team by just... 1 point! HAHAHAA after tat we ate drank and be marry at the BBQ haha.. after the BBQ had a short rehearsal.. after the rehearsal another theme tok by uncle KC! hahaha.. It was goot! OK! after the tok.. we had a worship and thanksgiving service! it was really touching seeing youths going up there to testify abt God's love and what He has done in their lives and also how encouraging their frens were.. not to mention there was a wonderful time of worship seeing most of the gals and 2+- guys jumping ard for the fast songs especially One Way! hahaha.. then we after tat after a grp qt we went to slp(most of us at least). now... TODAY! hahaha.. woke up, ate breakfast which was prata, you tiao and fried bee hun with char kuo teow haha.. thanks uncle Kim young for the foooood! (are u getting remberised?) so after tat we had our last and final workshop on prayer by aunite Mary. It was great.. I wish there could be more retreats and I can actually go for them haha.. after tat uncle Kc gave a tok.. and.. well.. It was really touching.. I even cried when he was praying.. abt the call of Discipleship..
Then he said to them all " If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me" Luke 9:23
God really spoke to me thru this verse today... abt how I sld put him 1st in my life.. even denying myself... wow.... then after the tok we broke camp.. we all packed up and went to Harbour Front for lunch! was having lunch with the camp planning comm+ Rebecca+Joanna.. Had macs and we fellowshiped abit cumilating to Diana not toking cause she 1s to prove she can hahaha... after tat, Rebecca and I went off to Long John Silver where I sorta followed her up on some of the things abt the gospel.. and she was sharing quite alot of troubles abt her self especially in church which shld not be... Wld be praying for her.. anyways.. after tat I went to collect my CRT lenses and learned how 2 put them on and take them off.. kinda scary haha.. after tat got home, tok on the phone, showered then had dinner.. Yawns.. I think I'm gonna slp soon.. in fact rite after I blog and put my CRT lenses.. Goot nite ppl!
1 more thing.. Would just like to thank....
Dominic for playing the guitar oh so well
Bryan for playing the drums even though u did not know wat was going on(sorry!)
Germaine for back-up singing for the 1st time haha dun wry u had a goot voice!
Rachel for back-up singing even though u did not really want to haha
Rebekah for back-up singing even with ur busy scheldue and even making it for all the rehersals
Huimin for coming down for the rehearsal and playing even though u din play on the actual thing
Angel for coming down last min to play keyboard
Winnie for playing the bass at the last min also haha
Joshua for helping with the pa(to a certain extent haha)
Andrew for helping out here and there even though I did not really appericate it(sorry!)
Alison and the camp committee for the very well planned and excecuted retreat
Uncle Kc for the life changing theme talks
and last but not least...
GOD! for everything YOU have done in not just my but everyone elses life. I offer up my life to You. take it and let Your will be done =)
1:21 PM
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Tuesday, March 15, 2005
wat a wonderful day! Got lots of worship stuff done like the orders and chrods.. but best of all God provided for me.. He provided the musicians and the vocalist I needed.. also the place! There was BSF tmr but for some reason there was no BSF this week! Lastly, we cld not find the adaptor for the finger drums BUT! we found tat we could use batteries! shalalala... dunno wat else to say lol.. Youth alpha was ok.. kinda unproductive though for the discussion cause we were quite distracted haha but the tok was good! anyways.. bettter go and slp.. tmr is another busy day.. Rehearsals and meetings.. oh well.. Thank You once again God (: God You are my provider.. words cannot explain my thankfulness and joy (:
Let
GOD lead the way, trust in Him,
He will bring
You through
Everything
3:56 PM
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Saturday, March 12, 2005
Wat a great day today! ahaha Firstly... no lessons today! lalala had to prepare for the carnival. Got most of my things done up and all.. all I needa do tmr.. is.. melt all the chocolate down ahaa.. Hope everything goes well! So anyways... after tat uncle Kc oh so kindly picked me up frm school cause I wanted to meet him haha so we went to Toa Payoh and over there we sat on 2 nice comfortable big sofa like chairs to have a chair haha.. we toked abt lots of stuff.. learned alot! thanks God and uncle Kc ahhaa.. ok after tat we went to pick Caleb up frm SAJC and we continued toking abt stuff haha.. We ended at SKS which was some Christian bookstore tat was really big and all.. so we spent abt an hour there or something it was great! u all sld reallly go! I got a book there got Witnessing 101.. think it'll be helpful for the Megaphone Ministry.. ok so after tat uncle Kc dropped me off at church where I waited for Alison to come to teach me Chem. In the mean time though... Uncle Vincent wanted me 2 taech him guitar... so I
tried to taught him and he seem all so enthu ahhaha.. but it's good! after tat Alison called me lik 3 or 4 times to confirmed wat I wanted for dinner hahaha.. so farni! =P ok after tat she came and we ate.. and she nicely treated me! thanks! haha so ate.. then she began to teach me chem.. She's a really good teacher man ahaha.. I cam actually understand! ahahha and shewas lik really patient la cause I was quite distracted hahaha.. afinished at abt 7.40 where she needed to go for her CG so she went and I went hme.. got home then called Joshua and Caleb for a time of prayer.. it did not really start well haha cause Joshua and I started to er..
talk argue talk ARGUE! abt the Casion issue but he fianly agreed tat it was bad even social betting so yup.. I thank God for revealing it to us.ended off quite well as we set plans for some sort of regular bible study type of thing haha so yup.. my day all went well! not to mention after the prayer I had a nice almost 2hr qt with God =) Praise the Lord for this day! How wonderful it is!
Thank You for blessing me so so abundunly!isitGodswillthatwebetogether
Let Your will be done. God bless!
3:14 PM
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Tuesday, March 08, 2005
waaaaaaa these days getting so so stressful! Got the history competiton coming up which is lik next week.. theres school work and the fun fair.... then theres Ncc, youth retreat, planning for so many things also.. ahhhhhhhhh...
God help me ok? anywy on a brghter note I missed 5 lessons today dunno if it is a good thing or not... cause I had a photo shoot for my school mag.. so stood there in my NCC uniform for like 2 hrs with the racist camera man saying "SMILE" and "DUN SMILE" oh and worst of all.. "Eh U! INDIAN NCC BOY TURN YOUR BODY!" He was likso darn racist lorhs haha... ok so after tat I slowly changed.. missing 1 lesson aaha.. oh well.. I wish it was still yesterday.. yesteday was so much fun.. had youth, then service, then evangelsim meeting then the greatmusic workshop which was fun.. best of all was the last part where we all JAMMED! weeeeeee hahaha so fun! we were lik all jumping and all ahaha.. then we also went out with Micheal! brought him ard Orchad and had GREAT food hahaha.. those were one of those memorable days... 1 of the best few meaningful days I had haha.. well I'm gonna miss tat guy as he goes to Japan then back home.. oh welll.. i feel so peaceful now haha.. God bless ppl.. Trust God always and let Him bring you through everything. God bless (:
2:32 PM
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Thursday, March 03, 2005
Before I tok abt today.. I HAVE to tok abt yesterday... ok.. yesterday.. in the morning had 2 go to school for chem prac at 8.. no chool cause it's Founders day (: ok anyway after chem practical which I
stole took some concentrated HCl but Justin poured it away ): Tszho, Dennis and me went to Orchad.. went to HMV listened to some music.. wondered ard Orchad Rd feeling lik we had skipped school ahhah.. we ended up at PLaza Sing where we met Andrew and Matt Wong for lunch.. we had.. er.. Yoshinoya after standing between Long John Silver and Yoshinoya deciding which 2 go for for lunch for like 5 mins.. after tat we went up to Yamaha, played ard with the guitars then went to the Indoor Stadium for the Founders day celebration.. got there and we were late! so we rushed in and sat down somewhere near our class.. so the celebration started and we were SO SO bored... sitting down there and all.. the worse part is.. Chan locked us down.. no 1 frm our school was even allowed to go to the toilet! Stupid Chan! BOOO! ok so after the celebration was over.. Tszho and me hoped on the bus and we went back to scool. got bac to school then crossed the rd to take a bus when... some1 wasw knocked down by a lorry rite infront of our faces! It was so scary ok! we were crossing the rd then we saw this truck honking away frm afar so we got up to a pavement then within seconds it went pass us at a high speed and suddenly we heard this loud sound and saw a kid lying on the floor!! It was seriously so so scary.. the whole rear view mirror borke off and the lorry came to a sudden hault. after a lik 5 secs the boy just got up and was saying he was ok or something lik tat.. and went over to the pavement and sat down. His fren lookedmuch more worried haha.. SO the driverlooking really relaxed, called the ambulance... oh well... all I know tat it was really scary.. and I praise God tat the lorry didn't hit me.. it went pass veri close to us.. hope tat boy is not badly injured too.. oh well... at least now I value my life more too.... now I know never to j-walk again! =S so after tat went to Corination plaza and had dinner there then went home.
ok back to today! haha.. 2day was ok.. had fun and all.. But the kayaking was cancelled due to bad weather! It's not really a bad thing though cause then now I got time to do my homework haha.. in the morning I actually paryed tat it would be cancelled so tat I could have more time to rest and do my work.. Thank You God (: eh.. speaking abt homework.. I think I better go do them now haha.. Cya!
Happy belated birthday ACS
Happy belated birthday Michelle
7:00 AM
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