Friday, September 07, 2007
Today has been amazing... what can I say but give God ALL praise and glory.. there was so much joy tat I literally jumped up and down in my room for almost 5 secs haha.. truly the words of Isaiah were true. "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand... For I am the LORD, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you." (Isaiah 41:10,13)
so what exactly happened? two words. International History... When I did my IH paper, I felt that it was the worst of all the papers I did... not only did I not finish doing it, I thought tat I did the questions horribly... when I left the exam hall I just knew that I was gonna fail... just last week i think, I've had 2 nightmares where I failed IH... it was really scary... till today...
Today, I was in school for open house preparations.. was just standing there when Mr Ngoei popped out of no where and approached me... he started with his usual, ur hand writing is bad and time management thing... While he was doing that... I was just expecting him to go on about how badly I did... how rubbish my arguments were... but no... Instead, he told me... I think you can get an A during the A lvls for Hist... I was stunned and shocked.. as in seriously... I was just amazed... ended up, he told me I had a high B for my IH for prelims...
Looking back... God had been trying to comfort me all along... just yesteday and the day before I was reading Isaiah.. and after today, I look back and I see where it all fits together.
Isaiah 42:6, 14-15 says:
"I, the LORD, have called you in righteousness;
I will take hold of your hand.
I will keep you and will make you
to be a covenant for the people
and a light for the Gentiles,
"Do not be afraid, O worm Jacob,
O little Israel,
for I myself will help you," declares the LORD,
your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel.
"See, I will make you into a threshing sledge,
new and sharp, with many teeth.
You will thresh the mountains and crush them,
and reduce the hills to chaff.
and in Isaiah 43:11-12:
I, even I, am the LORD,
and apart from me there is no savior.
I have revealed and saved and proclaimed-
I, and not some foreign god among you.
You are my witnesses," declares the LORD, "that I am God.
what can I say but to give all praise and glory to God.. this isn't the first time He did such a thing... it seems that God always uses my weaknesses and my 'lack of preparation' (not because I don't want to study, but because of the long periods I spend with Him), to do something unbelievable and impossible, that I and all around me may know that this is the work of the Lord.
Shine O Lord... Shine through Your servant... You have heard my prayer to "do mircales in my life... [to] glorify Yourself in me... [to] do impossible things in my life that when others look at me, they will now that it is impossible and look up and praise You... [for] my life [to] be a signboard showing that You alone are God" (31/8/07)
11:59 PM
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