Sunday, September 18, 2005
hmm u know just a few moments ago while doing my quiet time, I really found out wat playing my guitar was for God really was.. as MOST of you know, I've been playing guitar for yf for quiet some time but u know, especially recently, I've felt like I did that out of pride and just wanting praise.. and especailly last nite during rehearsal.. after a while when the songs changed to the slower songs, that I din really enjoy playing, BANG! there went that 'feeling' and I did not feel like playing anymore..
then there I realised that I've NOT been playing for God.. I've been playing to the crowd.... Sorry Lord for that once again and thank You for Your forgivness and that because of Christ's death on the cross, Christ righteousness and can wash away my unrighteousnes.. I praise You Lord.. So after that I asked for the mind of Christ (Helmet of Salvation =P) because I WANT to stop and play for God but it's just realy really difficult to do.. especially when ur up there doing some fancy tune for example songs like "What the World would Never Take"... So I wasn't expactin anything much since it wasn't my first time asking, but GOD, He blew me away. within mintues, I realised that I should really just let go of everything, look to God, and really watever I play, play it to HIM and not play it to the crowd.. "play to Him" this few words although so simple really impacted me so much! Lord You ARE a great God and You DO answer prayers. I praise You.
The next moment, I took up my guitar, sat down on my bed and for the first time in my life, I played a tune to God.. and I must say, that really felt wonderful, sitting there, knowing that God's listening to You, and smiling at You, knowing that for the first time your praising him with the guitar n that a stronghold in your life was just broken and now am free.
Oh Lord, sitting there on my bed just now praising You was really one of the most wonderful, freeing, enjoyable and awing times of my life.. sitting down there praising You.. Lord, how cld I have not had this before? I praise You Lord ! You've just broken a stronghold that has gripped me for so long. Thank You.. really Lord... thank You.. I only pray Lord that tmr, may I in the same way be playing for You, and not the crowd even as I play for yf worship tmr. May Your name be glorified!
PRAISE GOD
3:06 PM
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